Few days ago, I've posted an entry that I miss Kevin badly and I want to see him. This time, I still do, but the word miss that I am blurting now will grow fainter soon. I loved him. And I'll miss everything about him. About us. No one will be there to kill time until I step out of school and accompany until I get home, No one will tell me that I'm his whole and he'll be nothing without me. He's a type of guy who's fond of telling you even the most corny and cliche lines just to make you feel better. I appreciate those, but it's all words. Some of them happened in actions. SOME. Actually, last night, after we fought. I dreamed of him leaving the country and didn't even spent his last day with me. I was crying and I woke up at around past 1 AM and I was crying na. I don't know what that dream means. well.

I'm confused. I'm fuming. I'm hurt. I'm depressed. I'm helpless and I am hopeless.

Now I proved that when you're feeling something, you'll be able to type continuously without thinking, "what will I type next?" In every mistake, you learn, you improve yourself, and you don't go through that path again because you don't want the same scenario that happened to you before, to happen once more. Pain can never cease, but I don't want that it would occur from the same person who made me feel it. Once is enough. But it happened almost like, countless times. And now, I'm fed up.

I can't say that he never cared, he never loved me, he just used me because that's an understatement. Those are untrue, and unfair on his part. I wanted to thank him for everything. It's over. We're done. It's zero. I don't know what will happen to us. If we'll be together again, then, it's good. If not, I think it would be for the better. I love you. And I'll always will. But I think, this is an ended chapter now. I just regret that I've given much. That's it.

Thank You readers. I'm still bleeding. :( I hope I could move on.
I want to acknowledge EJ, Trisha, and EDU. I LOVE YOU all. Thank you for the comfort.

Just went home from school. We had CAT training. Practical exam of Juniors and Seniors. Gosh, there's a big dilemma. HELP ME. I just can't utter that out. You know. It's pretty confidential. I just hope, Kevin won't be part of it. Swear to God. He doesn't have any idea about it. And I believe it. Not just because I am on his side. Because I have FULL trust on him about such thing.

NO CLASSES. YIPEEE.
but oh, REVIEW classes. UH NOH.

This entire week will be our review for National Career Assessment Examination (NCAE). Our review includes:

1. Math
2. Science
3. Filipino
4. Verbal
   
5. Non-verbal
6. Technical
   
7. Mechanical
8. Manipulative Reading
9. Clerical Reading
10. Entrepreneurial Skills

Tomorrow will be our MOC exam. It will be LIKE an actual exam. And BTW, our NCAE will be on Wednesday. August 27. I was having second thoughts if I'll attend since my tita from Korea's coming home, we have family affair, eh. But then, it's important. My other maternal tita from Australlia will also be here on August 3. So I can still come and see them. :)

There will be NO CLASSES on Monday because it's holiday [National Heroes' day]. Long weekend again. Then, on Tueday, we're required to wear Filipiniana in celebration with Linggo ng Wika. Grammy has something like for Maria Clara, apparently, it won't fit! She's super thin during her times. So I let Princess use it. And she lend me hers. Trade for short. Then on Wednesday, NCAE exam.

I forgot to greet someone on my last entry, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN!♥
I missyou badly. I wish we could be together again. Though we weren't able to spend time together, I know that you know that nothing has change with my feelings for you. What we have before has never faded. It gained more, actually. Seven months of waiting is just numbers. Don't count `em. Just hold on. And all of this will be worth it soon. I promise. I Love You.

CAT tomorrow. Officers won't wear GOA uniform because of the conflicts that happened this week. Actually, we're quite pissed about it. It's not just me. Because things are not settled with the way they are supposed to be. Well, you can't get my point. Do ya?

Earlier, I worked on my Thesis. It`s done! Yipee. Chapter I only. Because that's what we're required to pass for First Quarter. :) This entry will be SO short since it's quite late and I haven't studied yet. 2 tests tomorrow. Math & Social science. Till here, Folks. :D

ETCETERA.
I`m GLAD the feeling's gone. You know. No more el-ow-vi-ii with my guy friend. It's a closed chapter. And for now, I`m happy with my good relationship with my forever. Of course, Kevin. :) Advance Happy Birthday! ♥ I'm making tampo with him. Kasi naman. Well. :D

Hi there people. :) I've been a sloth for the past few days [or should I say, week?] to post an entry here. I actually update my multiply blog often. Because I could appreciate comments more. Well, there has been consecutive activities in school. Which includes:

[*] Macro Asia
[*] Bartending
[*] UPCAT [University of The Philippines College Admission Test]

The pictures below is not in random order. Just look at them and you'll determine which is which. Sorry for this. I just wanted to save time since, I am dovetailing right now. I'm working on my thesis. WELL. haha.

07.29.2008

Selected Juniors and Senior students went to Parañaque. Specifically, in Macro Asia. It is a place where food that are served in airlines are processed and made. We we're truly amazed by the things we discovered and see. First, they asked us to wear Laboratory Gown and Hair net. Too bad, we weren't allowed to bring cameras with us, so I wasn't able to capture shots of us looking like chemists or whatever. haha. Then, they taught us the proper way of washing our hands with their techy faucet that is knee-operated. They are obliged to wash their hands thoroughly, or else. I dunno what consequence it might be. There are also cameras around so they can't fake things nor steal food for them to eat. We paid 300 Php only, which covers our tour inside. That amount was required for us, it will cost 800+ Php pala if we'll be able to eat the sumptous food they are making. You know what? It is really nice to see those type of things. At least, we are able to explore things. I am truly amused by how they do things such as those. They are full of care and hygiene. They even have color coding for Chopping Boards :)

08.01.08

BARTENDING! :) The exciting and freaky moment of senior life. We were grouped into 5. I am with Trisha, Mikka, and Princess. We danced through the music Move, Shake, Drop. The performance of choreography and flair tending will be graded as a group, but the serving and presentation of cocktail drinks, will be graded individually. I made Mango Tango. At least, I was able to please Ms. Sao. :) One of my favorite teachers. But actually, me, myself, I didn't like the outcome of what I made. It tastes awkward. It's like i'm taking my maintenance when I grew with white hair. D'ya get it? :D I got 91%. And I'm happy. With a big big "d" smile on my face. haha. Well, at least our hard works paid off. We performed a while AGO again. Since, we're part of the three best groups among the five. I think it's much better. The only thing is that we weren't able to practice much. One day lang.

08.03.08

UPCAT DAY! The FREAKIEST of all. I woke up early in the morning the day before this just to study. Because I didn't pay much attention with this for the past few weeks. Men. It was hard. Science and Math, I was too lazy to read the questions one by one. Gawd. But Language Proficiency and Reading Comprehension are easy naman. It was raining that day. I was able to finish it before 6 PM and I reached home at aroung 8 PM. :)