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♥ Thursday, August 28, 2008

Few days ago, I've posted an entry that I miss Kevin badly and I want to see him. This time, I still do, but the word miss that I am blurting now will grow fainter soon. I loved him. And I'll miss everything about him. About us. No one will be there to kill time until I step out of school and accompany until I get home, No one will tell me that I'm his whole and he'll be nothing without me. He's a type of guy who's fond of telling you even the most corny and cliche lines just to make you feel better. I appreciate those, but it's all words. Some of them happened in actions. SOME. Actually, last night, after we fought. I dreamed of him leaving the country and didn't even spent his last day with me. I was crying and I woke up at around past 1 AM and I was crying na. I don't know what that dream means. well.

I'm confused. I'm fuming. I'm hurt. I'm depressed. I'm helpless and I am hopeless.

Now I proved that when you're feeling something, you'll be able to type continuously without thinking, "what will I type next?" In every mistake, you learn, you improve yourself, and you don't go through that path again because you don't want the same scenario that happened to you before, to happen once more. Pain can never cease, but I don't want that it would occur from the same person who made me feel it. Once is enough. But it happened almost like, countless times. And now, I'm fed up.

I can't say that he never cared, he never loved me, he just used me because that's an understatement. Those are untrue, and unfair on his part. I wanted to thank him for everything. It's over. We're done. It's zero. I don't know what will happen to us. If we'll be together again, then, it's good. If not, I think it would be for the better. I love you. And I'll always will. But I think, this is an ended chapter now. I just regret that I've given much. That's it.

Thank You readers. I'm still bleeding. :( I hope I could move on.
I want to acknowledge EJ, Trisha, and EDU. I LOVE YOU all. Thank you for the comfort.

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